You know when you are exhausted and just feel like you lack the energy to move? I feel a bit like that about my weight right now. I had emergency hernia surgery almost 6 weeks ago. I have to wait until December 1st to be able to lift anything over a gallon of milk.
Let me just say that having that kind of a restriction and Halloween close together got the best of me. I swear in this short amount of time I have gained like 10 lbs. WHO DOES THAT??
Well, me. Too much sugar has lead to the worse sugar addiction I have ever suffered. I swear nothing sounds good to eat. It's like my brain has rewired to want only junk and I can't override it. I can cook for the family and then I don't feel hungry. In all honesty, it is the strangest thing so far. I have always enjoyed food. I have loved eating meat and veggies for dinner...well, that is out. I can cook chicken for the family and not want to take a single bite.
I know that if I can get into the gym, the workouts will trigger real hunger. The real hunger also triggers the craving for healthier foods in me.
I am so scarred of working out again though. I suffered a severe migraine almost two years ago. This migraine did not go away after a miserable day, it lingered. I spent months with a headache. The pain fluctuated from a 6 to a 9. EVERY SINGLE DAY my head hurt. Every day I had kids to take care of, a house to care for and life kept going. I visited a neurologist who gave me some meds that after about 6 additional weeks, broke the cycle.
I can honestly say...the migraine was by push into the pit I am in now. I would try working out and suffer a relapse. I NEVER want to be in that kind of pain again. I didn't even feel like myself, it was horrible.
So what has changed? Well, I think I have just reached my limit. I think I would rather have a headache than feel like I do now. I told a friend I feel like a fat toad sitting on a lily pad.
Well toad, no more!! I know that making changes is the hardest thing ever, but it is time.
