You know when there is something you are very angry about and there is nothing you can do about it?
So my husband's work has really changed his schedule at a time in our lives when I really appreciated the one he had. He has gone from working four ten hour shifts (and being home around 6 pm) to working three twelve hour shifts. This new shift means he will probably not be home until 8 pm at the earliest.
When we first had children we talked about sports and what we would like the kids to participate in. I thought we had agreed to hold off football until the 5th grade, but our son really wants to play. We registered him for this fall and I reminded my husband that football is not an easy sport for us. My son will have practice four days a week, plus games on the weekend. My daughter already has gymnastics two times a week. I agreed to football on the condition that my husband would help in the evenings. Now how is he going to help me? This new schedule means he won't really be available. Top that off with the new "working some weekends too" and I just want to scream!!!
I am so frustrated and furious. I am having a really hard time dealing with being angry about this. I HATE that this is happening just when we are getting busy. I HATE that he had no say in it. And I HATE how it makes me feel like I have to take on the full load of our kids' activities. We have a friends in gymnastics so hypothetically I can get her help when I need it, but that thought doesn't make me less angry.
I know I won't gain anything by being angry, yet I can't stop. I am so mad I just want to cry!!!!!!
